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I keep telling myself the year 2010 will be themed “Rebuilding” for me. I’m rebuilding for the better. I’m rebuilding because I’m sick of the old and need change. Well I don’t know about you, but for me I need constant change in my life…change to progress in life. You see, I have this “thing” where I do a self assessment every 2 years or so to see where I am, and what have I accomplished during these few years. Something like your computer if you will. Need to install bug fixes from time to time to make sure that there are no flaws and threats to the system. But if there are too many flaws to fix, then it’s time to format your PC and do a fresh reinstall…hence rebuilding a new system.

I’m sure you’re wondering what exactly it is that I’m rebuilding. Well for starters, CAREER. I have been working in a great company for the past 2 and half years, with great people and great work environment but somehow I always knew that I will outgrow it one day. Don’t get me wrong, I love it there, but again I don’t see myself progressing if I were to stay any longer. So what did I do? I took a risk and resigned 3 months ago in hopes of finding a better place. Why risk? Because I didn’t have a job offer anywhere prior to handing in my resignation. I did it because I knew I had 3 months to look for a job, which gave me some time. I did it because I just wanted out as I can’t stand being stagnant and not progress.

Just a few weeks ago, my new employers presented me with a very good opportunity. An opportunity in terms of learning, as things that I will be doing there, is different to what I’m currently doing in my company. It’s an opportunity for career progression because it’s an MNC that has worldwide connections, therefore might be useful to me should I want to explore outside Malaysia. And of course the remuneration and company benefits that came along with it simply made it hard to say no to. It’s also flattering to know, that people in the industry talks about you by giving good recommendations to their company. To those who know what I’m talking about…THANK YOU! In case you’re wondering, I was also offered a job by a rival company of my future employers but I turned them down because their offer wasn’t as attractive.

FRIENDSHIPS – My friends are my life. Honestly, I owe every single one a big THANK YOU just for being my friend. I don’t know where I will be or what I would do without them. I have drifted apart with some good old friends these past few years. We drifted apart because both parties were busy with our own things, and with our new circle of friends. We might also take it for granted that we’ll be there for each other each and every time. It’s also partly my fault for not making the effort for keeping in touch…which is why I’m hoping to reconnect with them and rebuilding our friendships. It’s funny because these are the people I probably know the longest and are the ones who I trust the most, but yet somehow we seem distant of late. Well, I hope to change that soon.

Finally…RELATIONSHIPS. Now, relationships not always necessarily mean a girl. Relationship here mean improve relationships with myself and my family members. I say “myself” because I think it’s very important to love yourself first before you can start to love someone else. In my case here, loving yourself means being motivated, confident and having self believe. Try saying to yourself “I love me for me!” and see how you feel. It’s not about being egoistic, arrogant or vain, but how many of you can say that and actually mean it? Not many I suppose. Well, not entirely for me at least. I do try to be and see things as positively as possible but I think there is still room for improvement…which is why I want to work on improving my personal relationship with myself first before anything else.

Family photo taken on Christmas Eve 2009 with auntie Elaine

Next comes my family. Now I know I haven’t exactly been the best son/brother but I think I’ll put in more effort in spending time with them, especially my dad. I don’t see him every day now that I live out on my own. But you know what? He seems to be getting older each time I do see him even if it’s every week. I’m not kidding! It’s scary yet heartbreaking sometimes to see my dad age. He’s been losing weight and now has many visible white hair on his scalp. It just hit me that times like these are the most precious, and that I need to be spending it more with my family members.

So here is a toast to Rebuilding for 2010! To CAREER, FRIENDSHIPS and RELATIONSHIPS! :)