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Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know

I love you
I honestly love you

You don’t have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it’s coming from my heart and not my head

I love you
I honestly love you

I’m not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I’m not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn’t come along everyday
And you shouldn’t blow the chance
When you’ve got the chance to say

I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In anoother place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we’ll just be leaving it at this

I love you
I honestly love you
I honestly love you

They say patience is a virtue and they say also good things will come to those who wait. Well,  I think I’ve been waiting long enough. It’s time for something good to happen. *Fingers crossed* ;)

In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tripulations
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I’ll Never Let You Part
For You’re Always In My Heart

I keep telling myself the year 2010 will be themed “Rebuilding” for me. I’m rebuilding for the better. I’m rebuilding because I’m sick of the old and need change. Well I don’t know about you, but for me I need constant change in my life…change to progress in life. You see, I have this “thing” where I do a self assessment every 2 years or so to see where I am, and what have I accomplished during these few years. Something like your computer if you will. Need to install bug fixes from time to time to make sure that there are no flaws and threats to the system. But if there are too many flaws to fix, then it’s time to format your PC and do a fresh reinstall…hence rebuilding a new system.

I’m sure you’re wondering what exactly it is that I’m rebuilding. Well for starters, CAREER. I have been working in a great company for the past 2 and half years, with great people and great work environment but somehow I always knew that I will outgrow it one day. Don’t get me wrong, I love it there, but again I don’t see myself progressing if I were to stay any longer. So what did I do? I took a risk and resigned 3 months ago in hopes of finding a better place. Why risk? Because I didn’t have a job offer anywhere prior to handing in my resignation. I did it because I knew I had 3 months to look for a job, which gave me some time. I did it because I just wanted out as I can’t stand being stagnant and not progress.

Just a few weeks ago, my new employers presented me with a very good opportunity. An opportunity in terms of learning, as things that I will be doing there, is different to what I’m currently doing in my company. It’s an opportunity for career progression because it’s an MNC that has worldwide connections, therefore might be useful to me should I want to explore outside Malaysia. And of course the remuneration and company benefits that came along with it simply made it hard to say no to. It’s also flattering to know, that people in the industry talks about you by giving good recommendations to their company. To those who know what I’m talking about…THANK YOU! In case you’re wondering, I was also offered a job by a rival company of my future employers but I turned them down because their offer wasn’t as attractive.

FRIENDSHIPS – My friends are my life. Honestly, I owe every single one a big THANK YOU just for being my friend. I don’t know where I will be or what I would do without them. I have drifted apart with some good old friends these past few years. We drifted apart because both parties were busy with our own things, and with our new circle of friends. We might also take it for granted that we’ll be there for each other each and every time. It’s also partly my fault for not making the effort for keeping in touch…which is why I’m hoping to reconnect with them and rebuilding our friendships. It’s funny because these are the people I probably know the longest and are the ones who I trust the most, but yet somehow we seem distant of late. Well, I hope to change that soon.

Finally…RELATIONSHIPS. Now, relationships not always necessarily mean a girl. Relationship here mean improve relationships with myself and my family members. I say “myself” because I think it’s very important to love yourself first before you can start to love someone else. In my case here, loving yourself means being motivated, confident and having self believe. Try saying to yourself “I love me for me!” and see how you feel. It’s not about being egoistic, arrogant or vain, but how many of you can say that and actually mean it? Not many I suppose. Well, not entirely for me at least. I do try to be and see things as positively as possible but I think there is still room for improvement…which is why I want to work on improving my personal relationship with myself first before anything else.

Family photo taken on Christmas Eve 2009 with auntie Elaine

Next comes my family. Now I know I haven’t exactly been the best son/brother but I think I’ll put in more effort in spending time with them, especially my dad. I don’t see him every day now that I live out on my own. But you know what? He seems to be getting older each time I do see him even if it’s every week. I’m not kidding! It’s scary yet heartbreaking sometimes to see my dad age. He’s been losing weight and now has many visible white hair on his scalp. It just hit me that times like these are the most precious, and that I need to be spending it more with my family members.

So here is a toast to Rebuilding for 2010! To CAREER, FRIENDSHIPS and RELATIONSHIPS! :)

Yup, today the management officially announced my resignation from my company to everyone. It has been a very eventful and good learning experience for me for the past 2 and half years here at Integricity. I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world. Some people knew about it, some saw it coming, others…well…are still surprised. Why am I leaving? Well, like most cases, I feel the change is very necessary. Also let’s just say, I have a very good offer, an offer too good to turn down. In my new workplace, I’ll get to explore something different for a change, something new to me. A whole different ball game! It’s really exciting yet scary at the same time, but I’m willing to take on the challenge.

My official final day in Integricity is on the 20th this month and I have about slightly more than 2 weeks break before I start my new job. Time to plan for a holiday! Any ideas where? Hehe…