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Sometimes I wonder, why am I here…what is the purpose of my very existence? Right now, I have this feeling that I’m destined to do something better, something greater or something more significant at least. I just feel I need a change of direction perhaps career wise or even a change in lifestyle. If anyone knows me, I’m a person who gets bored easily. I like to strive forward in everything, trying out new stuff and never looking back. In short..I hate being stagnant.

Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love my current job. It’s just that I sometimes feel  it’s not giving me enough personal satisfaction. Could it be that I have extremely high expectations upon myself that I constantly try to dabble into different things and always meet lots of people to help quench my thirst for curiosity and knowledge? Would it be a right move if I quit my current job, start something up entirely on my own that has entirely nothing to do with what I’m doing now? Or would it be a right move if I were to switch jobs and move into an entirely different industry?

Well, obviously I don’t have the answers. One thing is for sure is that there are lots of risk factors that I need to consider IF a decision is (ever) made. I’m THIRSTY! Thirsty for more challenging stuff. Thirsty for more knowledge. I work best under pressure…so come on world…show me what you’ve got! I need a breakthrough..I need a sign…

So what am I destined for? Perhaps I’m even destined to be Superman and save the world…who knows?

You know the saying "..if the shoe fits"? Life in general is all about decisions, comforts and being practical. It’s exactly like being in your favorite shoe store. If you’re a person that likes shoes (like me), and if you see that taboo 4-letter word "S-A-L-E" on the shoe store display, you can feel moment you enter the store, you know you’re fucked. It’s because of the temptation of buying a pair that comes with it upon entering the store. Yes, you have the option of not going in, but come on….that don’t usually happen now does it? You would still want to step in and look around to see if there is anything that you fancy. It’s called  giving in to temptation, and I know everyone as humans are guilty of it.

Firstly, there are decision to be made to pick one (or two), since almost every pair of shoes are on sale at the store. Life too is about making choices. Decisions are made based on the pros and cons of each choice. Choosing a pair of shoes is not rocket science, but choosing a decent pair that suits you well and that is long lasting is pretty much the same as deciding on a long term investment plan. In life, there are so many decisions to be made like which job, which insurance policy, which house to buy…the list is endless. When you choose a pair of shoes, you would also want it to last as long as they can and not have the soles come off just a week after purchasing it. You wouldn’t want to hesitant into making a decision just because it looks nice, but the quality is lousy. You’ll regret it later if you do that.

"Why I always have to choose? Can’t I have all?…Arrgh!"

Now, when you see a pair of shoes that you like, you would want to try it on first. Pretty much like starting a relationship with someone. You would want to try out to see if it fits and if they are comfortable. Always remember, if fits well, it’s not always necessarily comfortable. Most shoes has to be seasoned to feel extra comfortable. So before you go get married or something, it is necessary for both parties to feel comfortable with each other which requires time.

"Yes it fits perfectly!…but not really comfortable leh!"

Now lastly, it’s about being practical. If you already have those pair of shoes in similar design or color, it’s not really necessary to be getting another…unless it is a replacement for the worn out pair. Life is the same. It’s all about being practical and not being spendthrift. Certain things are "nice to haves" while others are "must haves". Everyone one can do without the former unless they have a little bit more saved up and would like to reward themselves. People need to know the clear distinction of the two especially with the slowdown of the global economy.

So, the next time you walk into a shoe store, just remember these things. Who would have thought that shoe shopping and life can have so many things in common huh? I bet you would see things a little differently now.

Note: Pictures from GettyImages.com

It’s that time of the year again, where everyone does their new year’s resolution, party and sing “Auld Lang Syne”. So what’s your new year’s resolution for 2008? For me, I’m predicting a more “challenging” year for me, simply because I think I have to make a lot of sacrifices next year. Before you all go “WHOAH..sacrifice what?..life?!!”, no..it simply means that I have to start being more careful with my spendings. Well, this means going out a whole lot less, no more holidays, no more unnecessary partying, spending and pampering. Why? Well, because I have to start saving for my new condo. Just to give you a picture of why, just the other day, I went window shopping for electrical appliances…you know just the basic washing machine, fridge, microwave oven, etc…those alone cost around RM 10k. I still have to think about renovations, furniture, lightings and all other extra stuff which could all total to around RM50k or more.

I’m just bracing myself I guess and giving everyone the heads up incase you ask me why I’m becoming less and less anti-social and not happening anymore. So there…one of my new year’s resolutions I guess. How was 2007 overall for me? Well let’s just say, it turned out quite well in the end as I have some things fulfilled (although not all). So let’s hope everything turns out better in 2008.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

(WARNING: This is a long post. It might bore some people to death. Reader discretion is adviced)

2006 has been a roller coaster ride for me. There were moments of happiness, and moments of sadness. In terms of relationships, well, I think most of you all know that I ended a 6 year long relationship with someone very dear in my life early this year. I can honestly say that is the single lowest point in my life. Never have I before felt such pain, emptiness and sadness. It was a huge blow to my ego, my self esteem, and not to mention my confidence. But that is life I guess. All good things will eventually come to an end (unwillingly), and you just have to embrace it. No use crying over spilt milk. What is done is already done. I can only prepare myself for the future, and move on with my life. It has been really hard, but its not end of the world as they say.

I have made a lot of new friends this year, quite a lot actually. I even managed to meet up with so many friends who I have not seen in years. It’s been really great to see those people and catching up again. I’ve started becoming more open to possibilities. It’s moments like these that make you “wake up” and analyze your life. Asking myself where I see myself in say, 3 years time. For me, it could have been a blessing in disguise for whatever had happened in my past relationship. Turning point? Maybe, I don’t know. People need to analyze themselves and set new goals every now and then. I guess it gave me a lot of time to rethink of what to do next. Now, I think I have a clearer picture of what I’m going to do, and how to achieve it. I basically have everything figured out (at least I think so), being bolder in making certain decisions, more risk oriented. You could also say I have matured in thinking, and being to handle certain situations better.

Recently, I took my very first trip to Melbourne alone! I’m so proud of myself. Why? Because it was initially setup to go during June, however, due to work commitments then, I couldn’t do so, and even had to cancel the pre-book plane tickets. But after months of hard work, late nights and deadlines, I decided to reward myself with this trip. Yeah, some of you might think it might have cost me a kidney or something to go there, and you’re right, it did. But you know what? It was worth every single cent. “Screw the money, you only live once! Go and enjoy, you deserve it”. I keep telling myself; and really I did. It was really a successful trip, being able to catch up with so many long lost friends who I have not met in ages. I will definitely be back there again. The highlight of the whole trip was definitely the U2 concert (I still make people jealous with this btw…hehe), and the drive along Great Ocean Road, in Southeast Australia, definitely memories that will last a lifetime.

So what am I looking forward to in 2007? Well, lets see, in terms of career, I have a few possibilities. I don’t want to jinx it by letting the world know about something unconfirmed, but there is definitely something planned for the coming year. My condo will be ready end of 2007 too. Will I move in? Well, I will only decide when the time comes…can’t wait to decorate it though. I’ve been planning to take up Japanese for a very long time, but just didn’t find the time to do it. I even bought myself phrase books to learn. Next year, I think I’m definitely going to enroll for a Japanese class (fingers crossed…). I’m also interested in taking up rock climbing. Anyone interested to join me? For my planned vacations? I think Bangkok and Boracay or Cebu is definitely somewhere on my 2007 calendar. A more ambitious destination…Japan perhaps? I must first see if I have another body part which I can sell. Boy I can’t wait! 2007…Bring it on!